Sunday, September 15, 2013
On the edge
I've written before about how on edge I'm feeling almost all the time these days.
It's not fun at all, especially for someone who's used to feeling composed and positive.
I chatted to a friend on Friday who is feeling much the same. Emotions are soooo close to the surface all the time.
When Julia sends me her daily "how are you doing today?" email, if I'm particularly vulnerable at that time, the tears just flow into my eyes. I can't take any genuine kindness but the slightest hurt also just throws me.
So that's why a good day these days is one where I don't cry.
My definition of success this week? No tears at work! And to work on my fake cheeriness and "just peachy" attitude.
What is your definition of success for this week?
PS things are particularly bad every Monday morning - even now, on Sunday night, I haven't packed lunch, bag or clothes, all in a crazy effort to put off the inevitable........
PPS I worked out my daily salary and my "mantra" is "at least I'm earning RX today"