|Johannesburg - April 2014|
Today I want to take a few moments to thank God for getting me through those 13 months.
He has totally restored my work situation - I work with decent, amazingly normal people. I even have a new K (my old friend K and I used to talk about things that the new K and I talk about now), a lovely, chilled boss, and I'm in a better place financially than if I'd still been at ex company (I would probably only have hit this level by the end of next year!).
And I can't remember the last time I cried!
|Drakensberg - May 2014|
Boss's boss and I had a lovely meeting and we sorted it all out. He even made a phone call and chatted to someone so we could sort this thing out, and backed me in an email afterwards.
Here's the thing - after it all blew over, I realised the way this was dealt with (BB was calm, helpful and taught me about this new thing without thinking or acting like I'm dumb) is actually normal. I was just so scared of ever making a mistake because everything got blown out of proportion over nonsense (really, nonsense) at the old place that I've become scared.
I'm nearly done with Daring Greatly and in it, she gives symptoms of a workplace where shame is a value. It was definitely a value there - absolutely not a true learning culture.
One of the lovely things I put on my birthday list this year is "get my confidence back" and by Jove, I think it's slowly happening.
|Ballito - Aug 2014|
I said it in last year's post, but I don't think I'll completely be able to convey my thanks to all of you who stood by me during that horrible time. I felt "carried" on your prayers many, many days.
I don't want to talk about it much more but I honestly don't wish a toxic environment like that on anyone. Nobody should have to take little white pills just to get through their workday.
And Laura, your words were instrumental in pushing me to do something when you said "you'll always be able to get a job but you can't get your health back".
Thank you, friends.
What are you thankful for today?
PS as I type, I feel like I'm talking to someone.... if you need me to listen, please just email/ shout.