So you know the whole saga about the word of the year ....
Well, after I felt all "noooo, this doesn't feel right", I said to myself, "Self, what do you want more of in your life this year?" And the answer was ENOUGH.
So I went to the Bible app on my ipad, typed in enough and there were 62 references.
And then, as it always does, all these other things flooded my mind so let me share why my word is ENOUGH.
I am enough. My confidence was knocked quite a bit last year and while I know that I absolutely am enough intellectually, it's taking a bit of time to line up my whole being.
You have no idea how, when a huge part of your identity is about being competent and accomplished, and then when people keep acting like you're not and that what you are is lacking, how that knocks you.
God is always enough. He's always been enough and it's a good reminder when the tendency is to freak out, to remember that He is enough. There's a song from years ago - "He's more than enough for me" and he is all that and then some. One of the Casting Crowns songs that PULLED me through those Monday mornings driving to work in tears was a song called Always Enough. "You're always enough"
I have enough. It's tempting to look around at others' lives on Instagram, Facebook and such and compare lives. Sometimes houses. Mostly holidays :) I don't envy other people's stuff but I must say, the holidays are a thing :) I just love holidays too much!
The truth is we have more than enough financially so even though my business income was appalling, we still have enough and it's good to remember this when vacuum cleaners have to be repaired, when I look at the price of holidays, when I look at the price of school uniforms. My God is more than able to provide.
And then last, I have some bad behaviour patterns that I'm saying ENOUGH to this year.
- emotional eating
- too much living on the internet
- my tendency to want to flog dead horses :) I've spoken with two friends in the last 2 - 3 days about how all three of us have tended in the past to invest more in others whether they invest back in us. This year, no more of that. I'm going to have to work on the letting go.
I loved that series.
Wait. I love that series.
It's a really good reminder to me that there is always enough time to do whatever I want. It's all about my choices (see the living on the internet point above!).
So I could say YES to more reading, more creating, more relationships, more God but instead I'm reading about strangers' lives on the internet?
There's enough time if I make good choices. There is enough time to connect with 3 am friends if I invest in those relationships instead of 20 that are of lesser importance to me.
What do you think?
(this feels 100% right for me)
What is your word for 2015?
Link up if you've written a word of the year post. I'll delete any other post because it's frustrating to people to have to read other stuff if they want to read your word.
PS the word I thought was going to be my word of the year is CONNECT