Last year May was my first month of freedom. I can't explain how happy I was. I was home, it was a nice, cold winter, I went for walks with the kids, fetched them from school daily, cooked and baked, put together a really good course and one for the church.
And this May was different. I was not unhappy generally but there are a few situations I'm not happy about.
We've spent a fortune on this house in May on normal house maintenance. To be fair, the house looks good (the parts that have been fixed) but I feel oddly resentful at the thousands disappearing out of our bank account.
Strange, when the thousands disappear for holidays, I just feel joy :)
We're not finished yet and while we're still busy paying for things, I have to hold this budget thing lightly because otherwise I get tense.
On the bright side, we have the money to do what we need and that's always reassuring because there were many early years when we didn't.
The kids are going to be 6 next month. Did you hear that - 6?!
I've been feeling very nostalgic about the babies. They (C) are losing teeth, getting tall and thin (K) and are super clever. I'm 100% convinced they're much cleverer than D and I (and we were very clever at school). The things they say, the things they remember, the way they reason, the kindness and compassion I see glimpses of make me both very proud and scared. Mostly grateful.
C: Mummy, I love you the most in the world. NO, I love you second. I love God first. (I mean really, that's all I want)
K: Daddy, what is the most fun thing you like to do? (he took too long to answer) Is it playing with your super adorable children? (D said to me, "I wonder where she gets that") (at least they have good self-esteem - again, that's what we want)
Anyway, 6! How on earth has this happened? They were gorgeous chubby kids just yesterday, right?
I had 6 socials/ friend plans on the May list. Two happened as planned, most fell off and others happened spontaneously and I ended up with 7!
Of course, this also happened and no, nothing is resolved nor do I think it will be.
|tell me this is not the most charming pic ever :)|
I just did my first new business deal which has been a TON of work but it's so satisfying to implement!
Other than that, work is still way too busy for my liking but I haven't had as much fun with work people in over two years so that part is AWESOME.
|Yes and amen!|
I will say that I want to walk more, sleep more, read more, pray more, cook/ bake more and engage more with these 3 loves in my house.
And I want to be on my phone MUCH, much less.
That will be quite enough.
On a scale of 1 - 10, how was May? Mine was an 8 if I just look at my goals page, but really, it feels like a 6.
What is your intention for June?